Hello!
I'm moving my journal.
I actually wanted a different username, so I got a new account.
I was saving it for the new year!
So my new journal is jennifer_lovett
Yay!
So add me there =)

You thought you got rid of me, but you're wrong.
I'm still here.
Well, lets see.
I mainly haven't updated because I'm lazy
and because my life hasn't been all that great.
That is probably the main reason.
And I don't like to be one of those people who bother others with their problems.
But basically one (well, two) of my best friends and I are no longer friends.
At all.
It really changed my life dramatically.
We were so close, inseparable you might even say.
But we got in so many fights and blah blah blah.
BUT I have been thinking a lot lately.
I think I might try to solve things with Jessica again. (yes, I say again because I have tried)
It is my fault that we aren't talking to each other.
I chose not to.
But she kind of pushed me toward that decision.
Well anyways, that is a major problem.
Another problem is my friend likes me.
I know that he likes me and he doesn't know that I know.
Ugh.
AND I don't know if I know if I like him back or not.
It gets extremely complicated.
And since I don't even know what is going on with that, I don't even know what to say.
And just recently my grandma (which I don't really like, but that is a story in its own) was admitted to the hospital.
She was diagnosed with lung cancer.
She has been staying here at my house now.
Not a good thing.
I don't have much compassion for her,
and that makes me question my humanity.
Like, do I have any feelings at all?
I don't know.
So, now that all that crap is out of the way,
I should (hopefully) be updating more
now that I am pretty much done complaining.

I hope everyone had jolly holidays and I will write soon,
Jennifer Lovett

p.s. I have a new obsession...Twilight!!! Hehe. Now I'm one of those Twilight teenager fans. Haha XD

His warmness on my keyboard
and his scent on my bed sheets.
Why must I fall in love with my friends?
Why?

(wow, I just realized I haven't wrote in forever and this is all I gots to say)

Yes! I saw their show at the Staples Center Friday night.
They are the most awesome band in the entire world!!!
I swear, I tried to find another word besides fucking awesome to describe them, but I can't.
They are not just awesome.
They are MOTHER FUCKING AWESOME!!!

Every time I see Brendon, his voice gets better and better.
I am seriously in love with him.
He sang some songs without playing instruments, would made me very happy.
Even though he is amazing at playing instruments, I love when he runs around.
So it was a perfect balance.
He also played the piano.
It reminded me of the old days :')
And he rocked it on the drums.
And I love the rest of the band too.
Ryan, John, and Spencer.
I love you all!!!
Nobody can rock as hard as them.
Panic will always have that special place in my heart
that nobody can take away.
I love them sooo much!!!
I want to follow them around the country and watch their concerts every night of my life.
That would be my ideal life!!!!

Okay, now that I got all most of my Panic fangirlishness out...here is my report on the trip:
My amazing sister, Amanda, who was awesome enough to take me and me arrived pretty early. So we bought our amazing rock band t-shirts and then got food. Hehe.
We found our seats. They were so amazingly close that it was amazing!!! (BTW: I am gonna using amazing in this report a lot) I was so happy, I almost cried. Especially since last time, I was up in nose bleeders.
Then The Cab took the stage. They totally rocked it. That was the first time my sister heard them and she loved them. I knew she would. And me and her are gonna buy their CD.
Then The Plain White T's came on. They were pretty good. I love "Hey There Deliah" Lolz. I know, every girl does.
Then Dashboard Confessional came on. They had a lot of slow songs. Which kinda made me want my Panic boys even more.
Then they went off stage. I saw Zack and got all happy. I'm like "Hey, Amanda, there's Zack!" She was like "Wow, you get all excited just when you see thier roadie" I was like, "because Zack is awesome" She rolls her eyes. She just doesn't understand the awesomesss of Zack. =D
And since my seat was so amazing, I could see a little bit backstage. Someone (and I thank this person) had a flashlight on. I could see the boys before they came out. I saw Brendon and John. I had my eyes glued to the backstage until they came out. Amanda was like "Just watch the Rock Band videos" Me: NO! I can see backstage ^_^

Then it was time for the boys to come on. I got extremely excited.
Basically now is where I blank out.
I'm so into the music and their amazing-ness (especially Brendon's) that I can't exactly remember what happened.
But luckily someone posted a set-list on the Panic lj community, so I can remember the songs they played.
I don't think they are in the right order, but here are the songs they played (and yes, I'm writing the full song title to each one):
-We're So Starving
-She's a Handsome Woman
-Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off
-That Green Gentleman
-Time To Dance/London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines/I Constantly Thank God For Esteban Combo (Most Fucking Amazing Thing EVER!!!)
-When The Day Met the Night
-The Only Diffence Between Martyrdom and Sucide is Press Coverage
-Northern Downpour
-But It's Better If You Do
-I Write Sins Not Tragedies
-Nine In The Afternoon
-Mad as Rabbits
-Shout (cover) (which was extremly amazing!!!)

My life should be devoted to Panic at the Disco, because they are the most amazing people on this planet.

I'm not crazy, I'm not.

Signed your Panic fan,
Jennifer Lovett

To lady_tavington!!!
Yay!!!
-the end-
=)

Wow. My life took a sharp turn on Sunday. And I haven't really been able to cope with it since. I found out that one of my friends, I'll call him JD (but it really isn't), is crushing on me. No problem, right? Wrong.

Initial Reactions:
-I don't like him that way
-He's a freshman, I'm a junior.
-I still haven't worked things out with Cameron. If you have read some of my past blogs, you kind of know we have lots of history. And I still like him.
-He's tall (lolz, yeah actually that counts for me, since I'm short)

But I have been giving this very long thought and
-I feel extremely bad for him. This is my first time being on the other side. The side where you don't like the person, but you know they like you. Yeah, it sucks.
-He is a decent guy. He is sweet and cute.
-Maybe I should do something for someone else for once. I remember when I was on his side of the problem. I remember it was just one kiss or one date I wanted out of the guy, even if he didn't like me. That was all I wanted. Now that I'm on the other side, doesn't JD deserve the same?
-Maybe I do like him that way (I started liking Cameron, another guy, since my sister said we would make a good couple. I didn't like Cameron in that sort of way until my sister suggested it. I recently talked to my friend Jess about this and she said I probably always liked Cameron that way and I didn't realize it until my sister pointed it out. I've been thinking about my past experiences with JD and actually realized that the things I've said to him and such do suggest I might like him in that way.)

Well there you have it. A big complicated mess. For me at least.

If you have ever watched the TV show Friends, then you might know how I feel right now. Rachel didn't really like Ross until Chandler told her that Ross liked her. Then she was all goo goo ga ga. Lolz. But anyways, that is kind of what has happened to me.

What to do...what to do....

Signed,
I'm someone I've never met
(Panic at the Disco reference for people who have no idea what I'm talking about)

Yeah I have one. Fun eh?
Seriously, it won't play any songs,
it keeps moving to the next song.
Like it doesn't play and then it moves to the next song in the list.
I yelled at it for awhile and went away.
I came back and Music of the Night was "playing".
I was like "Oh shit"
Seriously, if you start reading Phantom of the Opera,
weird stuff starts happening.
That isn't the only weird thing that happened.
And I'm kinda wondering if I should finish the book.
:/
But, I wanna fix my ipod if possible.
So if anything like this has happened to you, advice would be appreciated.
And if it has happened to someone else, maybe my ipod is possessed.

I had this really awesome day.
Don't know why, but it is great.
I feel at the top of the world.
Splee!
That's right, splee.
It's a wonderful word ;)

I want a unipire.
A unicorn mixed with a vampire.
Like for real.
If any of you have artistic talents, draw me one.
I will love you forever :D

That's all for now ladies and gents,
Jennifer Lovett

Read the article below

http://perezhilton.com/2008-08-23-so-sad-3#respond

Let's have Helena and her family in our prayers.

Yeah. I'm not dead! Although it has been since July 10th or something like that since I have posted. I actually have been on lj, but never felt the need to post anything. Lolz. I'm too lazy :P

So lots of stuff has happened and since I don't wanna bore you I'll just kinda make a list.
-Saw Panic at the Disco. (I probably included this in an earlier post, but I must remind everyone ;) )
-Read a book called Intensity (and loved it!) It is by Dean Koontz. You should really check it out ;)
-Continued with driving school and driver's ed. My hot teacher. Yum. He has a squeezable ass. Lolz. It is kinda hard to concentrate. :P
-Went to the hospital for the first time. I had something wrong with my intestines, but I'm okay now.
-Went to Vegas with a friend for the first time. I took Jessica (in my dream world I could have took Leanne and/or Rosie too, but that isn't possible). I met JD! Criss Angel's brother for you people who suck and don't know who Criss Angel is. Mindfreak. If you still don't know, you should be ashamed. But yeah that was awesome.
-Went to the mall with my friends Marissa, Rachel, Jessica, and Leanne. Met this really cool dude at Gamestop. All us girls squeezed into a photo booth thing. 5 people, 1 photo booth, pretty crowded. :P
-Went to Disneyland two days in a row (which I have never done) and got my second sunburn in my life. Lolz. Oh well, it was worth it.
-Had a big fight with my dad (that doesn't happen often), but eventually made up.
-Returned to school to start junior year.
-Went to Universal Studios with Jessica, Marissa, and Rachel. (and Jessica and Marissa's family. Lolz, did I fail to mention Jessica and Marissa are twins? :P). That is the second time I have ever been there. It was cool.

And here I am. I'm not one of those people who have extremely exciting summers, but a lot of good things did happen. So I'm good ^_^ Just hope no one missed me...lolz ;)

It shouldn't be as long when I write next time,
Jennifer Lovett

You can't be mad without being sad. You can't be sad without being mad.

Let me further explain myself. Jessica, Rosie, and I are all reading the same book at one time (btw, it's called Intensity). We agreed to stop on chapter 10 in this book and wait for each person to catch up to that part. Well, Jessica hasn't read in a few days and Rosie and I are dying to read the next part. Is it fair to us that Jess isn't reading? We agreed to wait, but it has been so long (to me anyway). And today, I need the comfort that only a book can give you. (If you like to read, you know what I mean). So I asked Jess if I could read on. Based only on her texts, I think she is mad. Mad that I am going to break our promise.

Breaking a promise. I'm not so sure on that. Rosie and Jessica started reading this book without me. I just happened to notice the book when Jess came over to spend the night and asked her what it was. If I hadn't noticed the book, Rosie and Jessica would have continued reading and finished reading without me. Now you have to understand, we are like a trio. You should always try to include the third person. It is just kinda wrong if you don't. And lately (well kind of always) I feel Jess and Rosie are leaving me out of a lot of stuff. Breaking a promise? I think someone else broke a promise before I even thought about breaking one. A friendship promise. To always include both of your friends in everything.

So to re-state my topic, mad and sad are the same emotion. I'm mad at Jessica for being mad at me for wanting to read on. And furthermore for starting this without me. I'm sad that she would start without me. All three of us friends became friends basically around the same time. Why wouldn't she include me? Also I'm sad that I've been spending time with her to get her attention and losing out on time with my other friends. Precious time. Time I can't get back with them. A waste of time with Jessica.

I should stop trying. I should keep reading on. But something, something is holding me back. Guilt? Friendship? What is it? What and why?

First off I got to go to Disneyland for the first time in a long time. I went with one of my best friends Leanne (aka disneygirl52). We haven't went in forever (or at least it seems). Our trip report is in her journal. I'm too lazy to write it :P I got to meet a character that I've wanted to meet for awhile and people call him Squishy Hatter ^_^

One of my best friends Rosie (if you read my bio, she's the one who moved away) is coming down to my town for a few days. I'm sooooo happy. I haven't seen her since like January. We are gonna have so much fun ^_^ We are going swimming, bowling, shopping, watching movies, and much more. Yeah! However, by Tuesday she is leaving with my other best friend Jessica. And yeah, I'm a little jealous that Jessica gets to spend the week with her at Rosie's house. (Wouldn't you be a little jealous?) I guess her parents met Rosie's guardians and they know each other. Unfortunately my parents didn't :( But, hey I'm still happy. The original plan was for Jessica to spend two weeks up at Rosie's house and Rosie not to stay down here at all. So I'm happy she'll be here a few days ^_^

School only has one more day left!!! Woo-hoo!!! And I took my most hard finals today, so I don't have to take them tomorrow. Bonus! I can't wait to get out tomorrow. Next year I'll be a junior, yeah baby <3

Panic at the Disco concert is Saturday!!! Yes. I have been waiting since I saw them last time. This time it's gonna be totally awesome cuz it's just me and my sis. And I might have a chance to meet the boys ;)

So that about wraps up my happiness. And since I can't wait for these days to come, I'll repeat myself with this countdown:

1 more day until school ends
2 more days until Rosie comes
3 more days until Panic at the Disco concert

Yeah! Summer here I come <3

Signed yours truly,
Jennifer Lovett

Johnny won!!!! I know I'm a little late, but oh well.
won: best villain and best comedic performance
I just got done at looking through the pics.





He is NOT 40. He is getting younger. I swear.
Recording next time MTV awards comes on.
I HAVE TO WATCH IT. MUST.

Done with fan-girling,
Jennifer Lovett

Hey. Like the title says, I haven't posted in awhile. So what's going on with me?

1. Can't wait to get out of school (12 days left) ^_^
2. I miss my friend Rosie. She was supposed to come back to my town to hang out for the summer. But because she got summer school, she can't. And even if she didn't get summer school, her grandma probably wouldn't let her stay at her house anyway. That's the whole reason Rosie moved. Because her grandma is so mean. And when I say mean, I really mean it. That is the meanest person I think I ever met. No heart at all. But anyways, Rosie might, repeat might, be able to spend two hours with me and my friend Jessica because she is coming to see her brother graduate. So there is a slight chance I might be able to see her.
3. I have four effin projects. Four. Isn't it the end of the year? Why assign so many projects. It makes me go "GRR". Lolz :P
4. My shoes are broken :(
5. I think I got an A on a research report I just turned in. :D
6. I saw Indiana Jones. And now a new hot guy has arisen and his name is Shia LaBeouf. Yummy <3

I'm ready for summer. Even though I hate the hot weather, I like to go swimming, have no school, and get up whenever the hell I want. Hehe.

So I'm gonna go now,
Jennifer Lovett

Ok, right now I'm getting a D in my Digital Art class.
Reason: I'm not as creative as I thought as was.
Anyway, I have to make up a project that I didn't do.
I have to make an animation.
This is where you come in.
If you have ANY ideas for an animation, please tell me.
Requirements are this:
1. you have to animate an inanimate object (meaning no people or animals)
2. it must be about 40 frames long
3. be in color
Please tell me if you have ANY ideas.
It doesn't have to be great (I just need a grade better than a zero on it).
The sooner you reply the better.
Help :(

I am missing all my tv shows lately
like i missed helena's biography and panic on loaded
grrrrrrr.....it is probably because of my freakin' homework
im ready for summer, cuz in summer:
1. my friend who moved away, Rosie, is coming to visit :D
2. I get to enroll in driving school
3. I can go swimming ^_^

welp, in other news, I'm gonna probably start a show thingy on youtube with my friend Leanne (disneygirl52).
If you don't really know our Disneyland adventures check out her profile. I'm her friend Jenny. Or she might refer to us as the Disney Duo.
We actually have a few "fans" on youtube of our crazy adventures,
so we're thinking about supplying them with commentary or something
and then actually tape for the show at Disneyland
we are hoping we can go next Sunday to start taping.
I'm excited about this.
If we do go through with the show, then I'll post it on here
If you're interested in our adventures visit my friend's youtube.
her nickname is disneygirl52 on youtube

Goodbye my loves,
Jennifer Lovett

oh btw..does anyone know how to do links? especially under the cut or putting a person's username as a link. that would really help..thanks ^_^

Last night I watched Big Fish for the first time.
It was AH-MAZING.
I totally recommend it, even if you don't like Tim Burton films.
It has a real good message too ^^
and, even though this is kinda random,
when the movie starts there are previews
and there was a preview for Secret Window.
And I had to "aw" about that for awhile.
Tim and Johnny are friends...aw
hehe
lolz...Im stupid :P

So today is mother's day. The worst day of the year.
I pretty much hate my mom.
My sister got me a present to give to her.
I told her thanks cuz I just can't get myself to get a present for her on mother's day.
She is nothing of a mom, so why should I respect her on mother's day?
Last year we had a fight on mother's day. I didn't get her a gift.
My dad was mad at me. Like REALLY mad.
So that's why my sis got me a gift to give to her.
I'm never happy on mother's day.
I can't wait till I can drive, I'll ditch this house on mother's day.

Well, you probably think less of me now since I hate my mom. So I think I'll go

TIl next time,
Jennifer Lovett

p.s. I was really tired when I wrote this so there are probably lots of errors :P

I haven't posted in FOREVER
1. I don't have too many friends on lj
2. I was busy for quite awhile
3. I'm lazy :p

So what's been happening with me?
1. I went to New York
2. I saw Sweeney Todd for the 8th time
3. I am enjoying Panic at the Disco's new CD

So New York was totally fun!!! I actually don't have much time to explain everything that happened there, but I'll tell you the most exciting: I sat front row center on Broadway!!!! (I'll tell later how I managed that).

Lately, I have been missing my friend, Rosie, who moved away in January. I just don't know what to do with myself. It is her birthday soon (April 22) and I wanted to go visit her. But parental permission: DENIED. Ugh. Wait till I get my own car. (Which reminds me for any Panic fans out there, I entered the contest for the Honda car, so I am now your enemy!!! Hehe :P) I'm getting real fed up I can't drive myself places.

Ok, before I go, I need some advice. I believe one of my friends (I'll call them friend #1) is jealous of another friend (friend #2). But friend #1 wouldn't ever tell me if she is jealous of me hanging out with friend #2. I don't want to stop hanging with friend #2 or friend #1. They are actually both friends, but friend #1 is seeming to be mad lately. Help?

Till next time my love,
Jennifer Lovett

Ok, so last night I had a dream about a Sweeney Todd alternative ending.
IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN SWEENEY TODD, DO NOT READ ON




















Anyways, in this ending Sweeney lived and so did Mrs. Lovett. Now prepare for weirdness. (My dreams are always weird) Sweeney and Mrs. Lovett moved (well, duh, they had to cuz they killed Judge Turipin and the Beadle) to....India. Yeah, I think it was India. My dream started off with Sweeney sitting on some throne thingy (but not exactly a throne...I can't explain what it was) He was talking to Mrs. Lovett about something....I think a new business...There was these 3 random people there...2 girls and a guy. (They were dressed in India style clothing...so that's why I assume this takes place in India). Sweeney then went up to his chair (I guess he moved the chair with him?) and he had a costumer. The costumer was asleep (I dunno :P) and he started talking about how he would shave him. The 3 random people were observing closely and such. Then Sweeney talked about how he would kill him. The 3 random people smiled mischievously and slightly chuckled. Then Toby (somehow got to India :P) walked in. Sweeney (obviously not liking him) gave a look to the 3 random people. The 3 random people knew they were going to grab him, but not yet. Toby started talking about something (I don't remember) and then he realized that his dad was in Sweeney's chair. "No Dad!" Toby said. And the 3 random people grabbed him then. (I don't know why it is Toby's dad. I guess somehow he found where his dad lived. I dunno :P). Sweeney gave Toby a horrifying look and killed his dad Sweeney style (Sweeney style of course is slitting the throat). The blood from Toby's dad splattered all over Toby's face. The three random people started dragging Toby to the chair. Toby knew his doom that was about to come. And my dream ended. I always wanted Toby to be killed, so maybe this is why I dreamed this. Sorry about the random parts. I can't control my dreams :P Hope that was interesting to you.

Also, I had two other dreams. The randomness is waaaaay to much to handle even for me. But I dreamed about this game I'm playing, Ico. If anyone has this game, I might consider telling you this dream. But beware for utter and complete randomness!

Also, (this is becoming a long post) I always tell my dream to my friend Leanne (Disneygirl52). Keep in mind she hasn't seen Sweeney Todd. I see her today and here is our conversation:
me: I had a dream about an alternative ending for Sweeney Todd
Leanne: ok
me: He lived :D
Leanne: *gives me a "hey I haven't seen the movie yet" look*
me: OH SHIT!
I keep forgetting you haven't seen Sweeney!

hahahaha....poor Leanne. I ruined the movie for her :(